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> Bron4aur wrote:
‘It’s just that Christians are responsible for so much evil in the world.
> Nevermind abusive priests, greedy televangelists, and religious cults
> who are stacked to the teeth with military weapons and explosives -
>
> When i was a very young child,my mother used to tell me that i was
> possessed by the Devil, and that God will *never* love me.
> I’m 31 now and i don’t feel loved by *anyone* , including God.
>
> I prayed, begged and pleaded with God for many years, to accept
> me, but He would either never respond to me or He just simply wouldn’t
> allow me to “see” The Light.
>
> I think this is a crime against humanity, making me suffer like this.
> ~ ~ ~ ~
> Today, I was listening to a Led Zeppelin song called “4 Sticks” which
> reminds me of an ancient, medieval Witchcraft song, and I started
> thinking about the many, many innocent women who were tortured,
> outcast and burned alive at the stake by …….
>
> Christians. Christians who disguised their power and authority in the name
> of Satan, Jesus, and God, just so they could kill women they didn’t like.
>
> Is it no wonder i equate Jesus and Christians with Adolf Hitler?
> I get the feeling Jews were treated better by the Nazis than women
> were once treated by God preaching Christians.
>
> And yet, still …… I want very much for Jesus to accept me……
>
> Thank you for listening,
>
> Michael

Rowland Croucher replied: As a Christian counselor (see our homepage for more about me) I can understand
your pain a little, I hope. You have suffered through exposure in your
formative years to a terrible experience of unlove…

I heard a psychotherapist say recently that for every experience of
conditional love from significant others take 50 points; for unconditional
love add 100 points; for conditional hate (I don’t love you when you’re
bad etc.) take off 200 points; and for unconditional hate (you’re evil/
terrible/wasting space on the planet etc.) take off… wait for it: 1000
points!

I’d find a well-put-together counselor and talk through it all: you may just
find that there’s a healthy (I like the word ‘salugenic’) form of
Christianity that’s modeled on Jesus rather than his faltering followers
(see the article ‘Was Jesus a Christian? I Doubt it!’) on our homepage…

Don’t ever, ever, ever give up (as Winston Churchill put it in his second
most famous speech!)

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