Hi [Christian name],

[Name witheld] wrote:
> 
>  Hi this is .... I sent you a message about unforgivable sin. first of
> all let me say thanx for helping me when ever I try to get help by email
> I just get some automated service. ok where shall I begin? not to long
> ago I experenced something that could only be described as demonic
> activity (this is not a joke)watching a I was being constantly disturbed
> by a sound form beside my couch looking over I found a spoon spining
> around in a cup overwhelmed with fear I ran and almost in tears told my
> sister not beliving me she took a look and it happened again. My father
> is a religous man a thought it to be demonic activity, at the time of
> the incident I was watching a movie that in some ways glorified satan he
> told me I had let demons in by these things and told me to rid myself of
> all unholy possesions and clear my mind of unholy thoughts. I did have
> my very bad things in my room which I did dispense of. 

Good.

> It was going ok
> but insted of things happening in the physical realm they stared to
> happen happen mentally I dont go a day with out fanticising about
> killing someone or some other horrible act. I have been giving suicide
> some heavy thought and it seems the only way out. I know this sounds
> like your typical cry for help but if you could only hear the thoughts
> inside my head you would understand. I have even tried to read spiritual
> books like "Spiritual Warfare" by timothy warner and "The advasary" "A
> way of escape" and they scare me to death. I have stoped reading the
> bible because I find things that would only suggest that I am to be
> damned. After many years of being brought up in a christian household
> and sent to a christian school these thoughts and horrific revalations
> come to me in a flash. im to messed up to be saved now. 

Wouldn't be so sure: the fact that you are emailing me means you care
about your spiritual well-being...

> But now before I
> end one question. Do you belive ones soul will be damned if he were to
> take his own life?

There's a catch-22 here. If I say 'no' and someone is suicidal and takes
their life, that's not good advice... If I say 'yes' I'm usurping the
prerogative of a merciful God... 

There's a good book by Martin Seligman ' What you can change and what
you can't' with some good advice for compulsive thoughts. I'd recommend
seeing a competent Christian psychiatrist. I see one every month to
check my thinking...

All the best  ...and I'm praying for you.

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Shalom!  Rowland Croucher                     ()